Trafficking of trust

Modern world, urbanisation,
Each piffling things are merchandised
Marketization, industrialisation
trust is also sold and bought
trust as ash on the hand
Strong air blows easily
The game of trust in Kathmandu
Which is comfortly achieved and
Instantly become the bat at night
Sparkles and vanishes
Never knew that trust is trivial
So people commodify
A bird can’t trust its mother bird
She beaks and tosses her kid
natural phenomena, natural cycle
Since nature isn’t also trustworthy
Trust is flower fades after 12 pm
It is the shell of turtle
Don’t know when predator invades
Becomes the shellless
But, but, the trust on human
Doesn’t implant so easily
It breaks heart
It takes time to recover the wound
Wound that has badly touched the heart

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Frog

house in filthy depth of water
covered by fences, darkness
I jump, limp, scream
neither I succeed nor anyone helps
i am small in size
but I have a huge dream,
desire of travelling, living in the world with freedom
all I m in quest of freedom
I attempt to rescue myself out
I hardly can, as soon as men glance at me, again in the origin
I pray, pray, pray, pray
but god never listens to me
have massive dream of being part of change, development
but no one believes on me
I m strucked in the depth of this burial.
Fear each moment, fear of serpent,
fear of male frog whether they assault me
I m a Female frog, and proud of being
the strive and jump wounds me
sometime I am lethargic, tired
with inconsistent tolerance
I can endure nothing now
all I do is the revolt,
I am a rebel , rebel, fighter
I fight till my last breath
first we same must be united
with love, compassion and respect
then the victory is with us
if this is the battlefield
we won’t accept defeat
either I kill or we kill
enchanting morning approaches
after the sorrowful night
Happy International Women’s day

Frog

house in filthy depth of water
covered by fences, darkness
I jump, limp, scream
neither I succeed nor anyone helps
i am small in size
but I have a huge dream,
desire of travelling, living in the world with freedom
all I m in quest of freedom
I attempt to rescue myself out
I hardly can, as soon as men glance at me, again in the origin
I pray, pray, pray, pray
but god never listens to me
have massive dream of being part of change, development
but no one believes on me
I m strucked in the depth of this burial.
Fear each moment, fear of serpent,
fear of male frog whether they assault me
I m a Female frog, and proud of being
the strive and jump wounds me
sometime I am lethargic, tired
with inconsistent tolerance
I can endure nothing now
all I do is the revolt,
I am a rebel , rebel, fighter
I fight till my last breath
first we same must be united
with love, compassion and respect
then the victory is with us
if this is the battlefield
we won’t accept defeat
either I kill or we kill
enchanting morning approaches
after the sorrowful night
Happy International Women’s day

Why fear?

I always travel from Phutung to Kirtipur for college which is typically the long distance. One day, one of my professors left the class at 5pm in winter days. I hastily came out of the class and ran to micro station. I got into the bus to Ratnapark. There was a long and tremendous traffic jam. So, I reached Ratnapark at 7 pm. The scenario of Ratnapark was completely different than usual. There was a crowd of people but indifferent towards each other. I was frightened with the crowd of people. I wished as if there would be no people. All of a sudden, I was terrified thinking what I would have done alone, if there hadn’t been these unheeded people too. I wasn’t afraid because of some male’s perverted behaviour. I was scared because of the increasing violence and harassment on women. I difficultly got on the bus in which I was only a girl. Consequently; some of the boys on micro terrified more and more with their unceasing tease to me. My legs were trembling, heart palpating, eyes rolling tears and my overall body was shrinking with fear. I encountered with such wretched circumstance just being a girl. This, my personal narrative depicts the worsened situation of Nepalese women although we are living in the post-modern, developed and civilized world. Nepalese women don’t feel secured in their own native country to travel whether it is dark or day because of the male dominated hegemony and unsystematic implementation of law.

My story represents the voice of other many Nepalese women who fear travelling out even in the day. Women scare these days immensely because of the extending perversions. They are afraid of being pyre of violence, crime and harassment. The perversions like increasing rape cases, violence, murdering and kidnapping are prominent in Nepal. Among these various evils, the rape is one of the most scaring and tormenting issues upbringing massive destruction in girl’s life. Since every human beings possess right to utilize their full freedom, women still are not supposed to be sired out even at their own home. Women fear of dismantling her protected dignity. Since the promulgated constitution of Nepal
2072, Interim Constitution of Nepal 2063, Nepal Adhirajyako Sambhidhan 2047 have guaranteed the right of women as fundamental right, but, sadly it has been confining within paper only, which the insecurity a woman feels alone exemplifies.

The women are fenced within strong and restricting norms and values of patriarchy that they are obligated to lead their life on the command of a remote-controller: patriarchal exclusive norms. The news of rape case is one of the most heard sounds in Nepal. The ongoing case of ‘Nirmala Hatyakanda’ has not yet been concluded. The government is still neglecting to give justice to Nirmal’s family who lost their child. The father reached to the depression and mother is about to lose her sense and life, but the government is expectedly hesitating to grant justice to Nirmala. It is stated that almost 1450 rape cases were reported in Nepal in the fiscal year 2017/018. There are many cases still unrevealed, hidden and unexposed. There are many stories of girls left to be narrated. Almost five girls are burnt on the pyre of rape each day in Nepal.

According to the constitution of Nepal-2072, there are 31 fundamental rights. One of the fundamental rights is “Right of Women” in article 38. However, the provision of women in constitution has been limited within paper only which is not implemented. Women are deprived of all human rights. The 33% of rights allocated for women is strongly smitten on the thorny patriarchal values. A mother doesn’t possess full trust on daughter because she worries and suspects about her whenever she goes out until her arrival. How much a daughter attempts to secure herself and her chastity unquestioned, is often challenged by the people alike her. Yes, we can’t deny the fact that the existence and glory of women is often disputed by women themselves. Right to freedom is one of the human rights. But, women with self-decisive nature are negatively interpreted. Self-decisive woman is elucidated with the name hen-speaking-like-cock. This shows the same superstitious status of women.

We are striving to create a new discourse regarding women as equal and rightful as men which has been limited within mere day dream. The tendency of hearing the voice of women already uplifted in higher position has enhanced the problem more. The grand narrative about opportune and advantageous women has suppressed the narrative of inopportune, disadvantageous and back warded women since we are evaluating the status of women from elite background which automatically subjugates the real identity of other women. There are prevalent
many social perversions happened with women as they are yet hidden, unrevealed and discovered. We can’t assume of women’s status to be highlighted, uplifted, prioritized, heard and noticed unless the narratives of
suppressed and back warded women are discovered and explored. For that, the certain criteria’s of investing women as Dalit, Women as Brahmin, women as Maithil, women as indigenous must be classified. Otherwise, the subverted women won’t commence out to be noticeably exposed in the platform.

The government, NGOs/INGOs and other organizations working for women empowerment should consider to the unheeded and unexposed women’s daily lives and attempt to bring their narrative out. Otherwise, we can’t measure the improvement accurately. Those morally degraded people must develop the sense of ethics since harrasment retains direct consciousness with morality, ethics and character. They must be encouraged to be more ethical, moral and decent through several awareness programs along with appropriate punishment after the crime.

My Village

My Village
Rant Annapurna Himalaya with its white teeth in the West, the warmth of the sun on the chest of the forest which manifolds its beguilement more, extending the sweet perfume everywhere in the East,, the thrilling, landscapes with the dance of Ghatu flowing on the body of habitants in the North, the Marsyangdi river broadening its melodious rhythm all over in the South, have been multiplying in the fragrance on the gold of my village-Harrabot. Still, my countenance blenches with the fright weather vehement attraction of people towards facilitating but devastating urbanization and migration would summon a massive peril in the future since the first ladder of it is noticeably visible in village.
The piece of heaven my village has been situated in the middle of the green land, which has expanded the slightly cold air everywhere. The ongoing weather is neither cold nor so hot so that anyone who aspires to dwell could be assimilation with the weather very soon. The friendliness of people stands utmost, creating another distinct identity. The unity on the diversity as well as religious tolerance sums the glory of my village. An enchanted garland with weave of different flowers has largely covered it. The distinct flowers are Hindu, Buddhist, Muslim and Christian. I explore the mesmerizing spring all the tie in my village, where birds chirp, flowers blossom and the intonating stream of Marsyangdi floods all over the village.
The corn panicle during spring season extends its sweet perfume, the paddy plantation during summer adds the eternal beauty making the surrounding green, the paddy grows the alert of farmers during the approach of harvest. The perfume of paddy panicle carries the attention and heart of farmers during autumn season. Ultimately, the mustard flower in the field enchanting bees and flies indicates the winter season, which gets victory over the fog and dullness of winter dispersing the sweetness. There are cluster of many houses of distinct caste and ethnicity. No discrimination on the basis of social status, race, religion, and class has enhanced distinct identity of my village. The equal distribution of the opportunity and right for the social activity to the diverse community has multiplied the elements of example village. My village Harrabot has been significantly popular in Lamjung district as the model village. The culture of respecting seniors and loving juniors is fully regulated here.

Moreover, my heart bursts into anxiety and disappointment, when I only explore the old habitants in my village. It has been a barren land absence of youths. The lack of presence of energetic manpower represents the desolated and faded lands. The tendency of migration from less facilitatory to luxurious city has caused this worst consequence that the held has been left over without plantation and proper nurture. The project of development has immensely called the symptoms of urbanization and modernization all over village. Everyone is getting attracted towards the luxurious life; as a result, the ancient houses of roof and tin have been substituted with modern mansion. No one seems to be interested towards their land. The work on field has been defined by the extreme glumness. Most of the villagers have abandoned the ancient home and built their settlement on roadside. The family of which son earning money from abroad does not likely aspires to sweep their perspiration on land. As a result, the minimization on greenery and charm on landscape has appeared. A few families are internally migrated towards capital city too.

The massive devastation will exhibit, if the process of neglecting the naturalresources enhances. The declination has noticeably seemed on the number of people nurturing some domestic animals for their own benefit. It is the matter of consideration that had been demonstrated the symptom of complete desertion very soon in the case of rapid destruction. The village might turn into desert with no existence of living beings. The Annapurna Himalaya permanently buries its smile, Marsyangdi River ceases to flow with its melodious rhythm and the greenery agitates its adieu. Then, the existence of human would be questioned and challenged

To sum up, my village speaks the voice of thousand other villages which are getting desolated because of the development, civilization, prosperity and luxuriority. The thirst of human towards technology, indifference towards nature and greed between each other would burn the pyre of the world. Everyone requires to be cordially conscious about the fact that nature co-operate on maintaining distinct glory and pride of human civilization, the human existence would be shadowed in absence of natural resources (soil, land, water, forests etc) and the applicable implementation must be regulated for the prevention.

Corruption

People have worn the garland of greed
They want to sleep on the bed of money
Are inclined to the materialist devices

They are hungry animals in quest of food
Neither see Biskun on yard nor paddy in field
They luxuriate whipping the nation
Rape the nation being themselves focused
Nation is diluents smitten by germ ‘Corruption’
Greed, loss of humanity, desire of luxurious life
Quenchless thirst for prosperity and materialism
Authoritarians embrace and fragment the nation
Anxiety is what be the identity on the extension.

Poem about Corruption @My Republica (Nepalese Daily Newspaper)

Struggle of being Woman

My mother is in search for an identity. She used to be called by her father’s name before marriage and by my father’s name after getting married. Now everyone recognizes her by my brother’s name. No one even knows her name. When someone asks her name, she tells them: “Why do you need my name that does not bear any meaning?”

There are many women in the world who are living their lives pretending to be happy even without ever realizing what happiness is. They are compelled to be like the moth covered with mist. They respire each second with fear, laugh silently, and fight their biological complexities without ever complaining.

When I was born as the youngest child of my parents, they were obliged to toss me away because they were desperately looking for another son. They already had three sons, but still one more son was more important for them.

I have strong determination to do something innovative and contribute for the advancement of my country, and I am passionate about it. I am struggling hard to break the norms and values imposed upon us by the patriarchal society. My brothers are lucky to be exempt from such sorts of struggles.

When my brother comes back home late, no one tells him anything. But, when I am a little late, there is a huge issue. My home becomes an example of the stereotyping of gender roles and privileges. Women are considered to be soft, indecisive, sentimental, emotional, sensitive, week, and in need nurturing, whereas men are considered to be strong, decisive, and possessing of strength suitable for fighter.

Moreover, the mass media do not give investigative stories about women’s issues. They do not work diligently enough to dig out women’s issues except on special occasions like Women’s Day, when all the newspapers run photos of women in the front page and write opinion pieces about women who are already living successful and prosperous lives. You do not see depth reporting on the discrimination and injustices that women face every day.

One of the disheartening facts is that many victims of sexual assault are compelled to keep the incident secret because their parents think that it brings them disgrace. A father assaults his own daughter. When she shares the trauma with her mother, the mother pleads with her to conceal the fact saying that it will ruin their family prestige.

When a girl becomes 20, all the family members start worrying about her marriage. The neighbors and relatives start backbiting about the family for not marrying off their aged daughter. For instance, I am now 22 years old. I am studying and side by side working hard to contribute for my society. But my family keeps urging me to get married. I refuse and tell them that I want to be self-dependent and do something innovative for the development of my nation.

Many women are harassed sexually by their family members, colleagues, and bosses. I hear from many married women that they often have to let their husbands make physical relation with them whether they like it or not. Many husbands tell their wives that they did not marry them just to worship them if the wives are not ready for sex. The consent from both sides is required, but men do not care.

Furthermore, many women become the victims of domestic violence. We often hear of stories when the husband and his family members beat the wife severally and even attempt to burn her alive if her family does not meet the demands of the husband’s family. The bride’s family has to give huge amount of money and other goodies to the groom’s family, whether they can afford it or not.

Women should co-operate with each other, spread love, and listen to the voices of each other. Feminist movement should be grounded on developing skills of women and inspiring them to be more self-reliant. Just demonstrating with banners on Women’s Day will not help much. Women should be united like the flowers of a garland. Only then could the condition of women be improved.

 

Struggle of being Woman @My Republica (Nepalese Daily Newspaper)

Why only Two Options?

Does reading Science as Major Subject in higher education represent a student as genius, intelligent or of higher spirit? Can’t a student enhance the skills that are require while having brightening career after following other faculty? It is disheartening that many people are not aware about other faculties except Science and Management even students don’t know. When a student scores low grade in SEE, then he/she conceptuates of studying management assuming only two options either don’t know that there are other faculties too: Humanities and Education.

Last year, I heard two parents talking whose children had passed SEE with B+ grade. They were sharing to each other that my daughter might study management since there are only two options either Science or Management and she has clearly stated that I can’t pass Science with satisfactory marks. And another student’s parents replied that my son is insisting to study Science because his all best friends are sledding and I also have dream of seeing my son studying science. In this condition, does the science study with reluctant and less capability carry out the expected result? What sorts of manpower does it produce after studying science to show up? Such the tendency literally kills the skillful manpower as well as happiness and peace.

I am amazingly surprised analyzing the feeble education system of Nepal. Though there are indwelling many faculties, students are acquainted with only two faculties Science and Management, which does not elucidate the incursion of the common people and students such the concept of developing only two options in the mind represents the debased and depressed education system. Skills which are necessitated for the glistening future could be explored in science and management since other faculties like Humanities and Education possess limited scopes. So that, many parents enforce their children for studying Science and Management despite the will and potentiality of students.

I met one friend and introduced each others. He asked you study Science or Management? Then, I told, I study Humanities. He got confused and asked me what sort of faculty is this? Such the tendency really further hinders on the qualitative distribution of the education. The lectures and professors of University are significantly conscious about the lack of reliable and utile academic curriculum in Humanities and Education. Here comes my personal real experience which I coped during my Masters course that one professor came in our class at Tribhuvan University. There were four sections studying English Literature. He delivered his speech that why all of you have been here to study English Literature since it does not secure your career. Meanwhile, he told that I own supreme position at Department of English. He again continued that I have sent my son to abroad for studying technical subject because there exists no nay paths for the secured career studying Humanities and Education. He possesses higher position to implement some decision regarding curriculum as well as he presented himself as being aware about everything. Then my question is “Why doesn’t he amend the less utile curriculum? This demonstrates that the trouble is rooted upon the authoritarian bodies that can neither make reliable decision nor think academic curriculum, rather they provoke students demonstrating example of not having any secured career after studying which ultimately demotivates students who are studying Humanities or Education. Teachers are actually mean of motivation and inspiration as well as guardian to reflect the enlightenment. However, to instigate and demotivate to the students also evidences the lame education system.

Furthermore, the number of people who got to golf countries in the quest of employment is also from humanities and education background which also includes considering again about the curriculum of these faculties. My next astonishment is that encompassing student as talent, whereas clasping education faculty correspond a student erroneous and misconception. Mainly, whichever subject we choose, we must have heightened all sorts of skills. Skills are requisite for the future. Those who are aware about academic curriculum and faculties do not equate all the faculties.

Nepalese education system is degrading day by day. The less practical based education system of Nepal has attracted many students towards foreign education which is for better operable. The student’s non-acknowledgement as well as unwillingness to study Humanities and Education challenges the bodies dwelling at supreme education posit. It is actually the responsibilities of the government sectors to rethink about the curriculum. They must be focused on enhancing the quality must indeed be more acute. After the skillful and utile academic curriculum, the inclination towards foreign country would be decreased as labor. The respect and identity of being literate would be achieved by all.

“Why only two options?” @ My Republica (Nepalese Daily Newspaper)

“Judge your Spirit not your Body”

“I am weaker than her, I am less beautiful than her, I am dissatisfied with my own body, I feel shame going out because I have no any strength to tolerate people’s mock regarding my countenance, I can no more attend social ceremonies, no any dresses suit me”, such the feeling really discourages adolescence to brighten their future who are actually backbone of nation.

 Body Shaming, one of the most extending catastrophes which is derogating specially the adolescence. Body Shaming represents the difficulty to demonstrate own body on amid of mass because of being less beautiful, shorter, being black etc. It embodies the judgement on the basis of body. It emphasizes outer countenance not spiritual one. When I was travelling by bus, I have listened two students of grade eleven talking about their college “Farewell Program”. One girl had stated that I will not attend the farewell program because neither sari nor Kurta suit me because of fatness”. Such the feeling of low self-esteem has resulted the anarchy among all new generation.

The identity and respect should be evaluated on the basis of their inner thought, intellectuality, decisiveness as well as decency and politeness, people own. However, the tendency of witnessing identity on the basis of the beautiful countenance, slimness, white and enchanting face has degraded the self-esteem of adolescence. Body structure does not matter in order to reach onto the destination. Everyone should consider on enchanting skills, exploring self in the front of the mass, storing knowledge as well as being intellectual. Lack of motivation because of the own body degrades own status socially as well as personally.

“My Body, My Everything, how it is either beautiful or ugly, either enchanting or disenchanting, either fat or slim”. None of us should perpetuate any such discouraging feeling for own body structure because you are not responsible for the trifle of people, but you are responsible, how you carry yourself onto society. Our body does not matter, but our performance and decency matter a lot. So, let us not be concerned on physicality, countenance and outer anatomy, but to the knowledge, capability, skills and decency so that we could contribute our best effort for the development of nation.